I don't understand...
Where's the tea?
It's been a very uneven few months and culminated in having to take a week off work and just rest. Seriously doing nothing except wash up, feed the animals, watch a DVD and sleep. And I feel so much better for it. Well, I feel vaguely functional again and no longer a danger at work because my brain is once again back on board (hence the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy reference).
Which possibly means I'm learning - if the psoriasis on my hand flares up, I'm stressed and need to slow down/take time out. Brain fog - I'm too tired and need to slow down/take time out. Large gatherings - (more than six people for a few hours) are no longer viable. Small gatherings - can do, but need to plan for that weekend to be devoted to rest, no chores at all, so I can recover.
The impact of CFS on my life and on Best Beloved's life is much wider and more long term than I was prepared for. There is continual adjustment and explanation, because the physical side is easier to see than the mental/emotional fatigue. Learning to pace myself is probably the hardest aspect, because even confirmed introverts want to socialise occasionally, want to be able to do what used to be commonplace.
I started this a couple of months ago, got too tired to continue and it's languished. Wotthehell, as Mehitabel said. Press Publish.